4.20.2004
I will miss this lake. The serene water surface. The cool airs that blow past it and the quite during the night. Staring across it watching Selune make her journey across the night sky. This is such a beautiful area. I think if I could choose a place to haunt or stay in the afterlife I would choose this moment. I imagine the area around the lake would eventually find a person who will settle here and then it will lose its natural beauty. I will take this moment and freeze it into my mind. I have so many of such memories. Only a few with my parents though. As I grow older I ponder how much will I remember when I am 300? How much will fade when I hit 500? Will I achieve that age? I remember when I was young I met an old human man. He claimed to be almost a hundred years old. He lived off of his magic and as long as he stayed in his house he would achieve 200. What would be a life that is lived in solitude? What is a life that is not filled with every waking moment with friends or the occasional moment of serenity like this lake? I sit here staring out pondering what the next day will bring. Was the getting Darius worth it? Will the group completely accept him back in. As much as I would like to think things would go back to how they were I don’t think they will. Things have changed so quickly in such a short amount of time. Even those of non-human descent appeared have changed rather quickly. Even I as I touch my sword hilt I ponder how many things have changed. It was during a moment of anger and memories that I bought this sword. Will I ever use it? My faith teaches of repaying violence with swifter violence so an example is set. Being one who does not wish to kill I ponder if my faith is placed correctly. Though the repaying violence is only a part of the dogma I ponder if my lack of true concern for my elven brothers who reside beneath the surface is not for religious purposes but instead part of my curiosity. Like my name is my faith placed in the moon goddess?
